Thursday, October 7, 2010

my rantings: Disturbed

my rantings: Disturbed


I am really upset about all of these teen suicides i have been hearing about, like its not hard enough to be a teen but top it off with being bullied because your gay or just different thats wrong.
I want people out there who feel the same way as i do to raise awareness about this and make it known that these young teens do not have to feel like suicide is their only way out, there are people to help and there is more support than you realize if you just reach out and talk about it.
I for one will listen and not judge you and help you through these problems.
Love is louder is an organization that is already raising awareness of this and you can look them up on the web also on facebook. Another great organization is the Trevor project they are to help you 24 hrs a day online and on the phone. To reach the Trevor Lifeline, call 866-4-U-TREVOR.

please help me end this hate and spread the love anyone who happens upon my blog please send it along and let people know that suicide is not their only option.

Tuesday, August 3, 2010

The One Flaw In Women

The One Flaw In Women

By the time the Lord made woman,

He was into his sixth day of

working overtime.

An angel appeared and said,

"Why are you spending so much

time on this one?"

And the Lord answered, "Have you seen my spec sheet on her?

She has to be completely washable,

but not plastic,

have over 200 movable parts,

all replaceable

and able to run on diet coke and leftovers,

have a lap that can hold

four children at one time,

have a kiss that can cure anything from a scraped knee to a broken heart

-and she will do everything

with only two hands."

The angel was astounded at the requirements.

"Only two hands!? No way!

And that's just on the standard model?

That's too much work for one day.

Wait until tomorrow to finish."

"But I won't," the Lord protested.

"I am so close to finishing this creation that is so close to my own heart.

She already heals herself when she is sick

AND can work 18 hour days."

The angel moved closer and touched the woman.

"But you have made her so soft, Lord."

"She is soft," the Lord agreed,

"but I have also made her tough.

You have no idea what she

can endure or accomplish."

"Will she be able to think?", asked the angel.

The Lord replied,

"Not only will she be able to think,

she will be able to reason and negotiate."

The angel then noticed something,

and reaching out, touched

the woman's cheek.

"Oops, it looks like you have

a leak in this model.

I told you that you were trying to put too much into this one."

"That's not a leak,"

the Lord corrected, "that's a tear!"

"What's the tear for?" the angel asked.

The Lord said, "The tear is her way of expressing her joy, her sorrow,

her pain, her disappointment,

her love, her loneliness, her grief

and her pride."

The angel was impressed.

"You are a genius, Lord.

You thought of everything!

Woman is truly amazing."

And she is!

Women have strengths that amaze men.

They bear hardships and

they carry burdens,

but they hold happiness,

love and joy.

They smile when they want to scream.

They sing when they want to cry.

They cry when they are happy

and laugh when they are nervous.

They fight for what they believe in.

They stand up to injustice.

They don't take "no" for an answer

when they believe there is a better solution.

They go without so their family can have.

They go to the doctor with

a frightened friend.

They love unconditionally.

They cry when their children excel

and cheer when their friends get awards.

They are happy when they hear about

a birth or a wedding.

Their hearts break when a friend dies.

They grieve at the loss of a family member,

yet they are strong when they

think there is no strength left.

They know that a hug and a kiss

can heal a broken heart.

Women come in all shapes,

sizes and colors.

They'll drive, fly, walk, run or e-mail you

to show how much they care about you.

The heart of a woman is what

makes the world keep turning.

They bring joy, hope and love.

They have compassion and ideals.

They give moral support to

their family and friends.

Women have vital things to say

and everything to give .





Wednesday, July 28, 2010


Okay People as I obviously see none of you have missed me :( that's okay though cause I'm back regardless, right now I am bored and I don't feel too well.

Alright really I am going to put this up and see what happens here are some links because well these are places you need to know about and come see.

that first one is me and the second is my girl yall should definitely come make an account and follow us and watch if this is all messed up in text then i will have to edit but cant cause i cant see past this damn ad that wont go away.

Thursday, May 13, 2010

OMG! Attention fans of Twilight..

Am I going to have to start a riot group of twilighter's in the near future?
first off i just read this story on yahoo that possibly Ashley Greene and Kelan Lutz are maybe demanding a higher pay for Breaking Dawn and Summit Entertainment says no its rumored that they may possibly recast..hello? um if you get rid of two characters that have been there for all three movies and that people fell in love with you are going to have a problem on your hands from the fans, no one wants a new Alice or Emmet..I know this much we may just have to boycott the last movie if this happens to prove a point..even before its done filming because i personally think they all deserve a pay raise! So here it is Summit i think you are going to have a MAJOR CATASTROPHE on your hands if you do this!

Anyone who reads this please tell me what you think.

This is the official story:

As "Twi-hards" await an official confirmation on whether or not the saga's final chapter, "Breaking Dawn," will be split into two films, a new report suggests it's all a done deal - if the studio could just get some of the stars to agree on financial terms.

According to The Hollywood Reporter, Summit Entertainment is close to sealing the deal to split the fourth novel in Stephenie Meyer's vampire saga into two movies.
However, while deals with the big three actors - Robert Pattinson , Kristen Stewart and Taylor Lautner - are all close to being final, and deals for movie dads Peter Facinelli (Carlisle Cullen) and Billy Burke (Charlie Swan) are already done, it's some of Facinelli's on-screen kids who could be causing the hold up.

Kellan Lutz and Ashley Greene - who play Emmet and Alice Cullen, respectively - are reportedly seeking a bigger payday for the final installment in the series, and according to The Hollywood Reporter's THR, Esq. blog, Summit is reportedly not willing to budge.

"We may have a situation where one of them is thrown out on the street to make a point," a source close to the situation told the trade.

Entertainment Weekly also reported the salary dispute.

A manager for Greene had "no comment" on the story when contacted by Access Hollywood, while a rep for Lutz was not immediately available for comment.

When contacted by Access Hollywood, a spokesperson for Summit said it was still undecided if "Breaking Dawn" would be one or two movies.

"That has not been determined yet," the spokesperson told Access.

However, if there are indeed negotiations going on between the Cullen kids and the studio, Lutz and Greene may want to proceed with caution, as Summit has shown before that it's willing to recast mid-series.

The upcoming third installment, "Eclipse," which hits theaters on June 30, will star Bryce Dallas Howard as vampire Victoria, after Rachelle Lefevre was replaced after the first two chapters following a scheduling conflict.

"This thing is gonna be two movies," another source told The Hollywood Reporter. "With or without the cast intact."

As previously reported on, whether it's one film or not, "Breaking Dawn" will hit theaters on November 18, 2011, with director Bill Condon at the helm.

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Thursday, April 15, 2010

for you

I do not have a lot of followers but i hope that when u all see this new blog you will read and comment.

I was inspired to write this mainly by one woman her name is Heather Spohr and i have been reading her blog for quite sometime now and i honestly am not sure how she keeps on going but its that kind of strength that inspires me to keep going everyday with the little meaningless things i do.

Heather and her husband Mike as well as their entire family lost their dearest little Madeline last year,she was only 17 months old. Though like many others i did not know this beautiful little girl i just heard about her through a friend of mine and i immediately started reading her mommy's blog and became entangled in her musings of their lives, I know from reading about her that Madeline was a fighter and a star in the making and she found a friend in everyone.

I was thinking today as i read Heather's blog and could see as well as feel the love pouring from each word that even though this was a terrible tragedy and injustice on this world that I've learned a lesson and i hope many others have as well this little angel was born prematurely and had to fight to live when she was first born and then again before sadly she passed away and here we are with our little annoyances or whatever so called drama complaining making it seem like our lives are just over because something didnt go just right for us and yeah i know that life is hard sometimes but its not that hard. take a step back and think of all the things you have to be thankful for each individual little thing that you may take for granted like children you just assume that they are always going to be there because no one likes to think that something could happen to them so we just live in our idealistic little world but we shouldnt we should cherish every moment we have with them or whoever and always make sure they know you love them dont ever make someone feel worthless even if you do it and then write it off as oh they knew i was in a bad mood it'll be okay tomorrow, but what if there is no tomorrow's for them? that is a regret you will have to live with for the rest of your lives, also stop complaining about these little things that are really nothing because in the greater scheme of things you know they arent, anyways i may not have used the right words or well it may not sound so but i have learned a great lesson and i will watch my actions and words more carefully from now on.

Dearest Heather,
If by chance you should ever read this know that i am terribly sorry for your loss and even sorrier that i havent told you this before, I wish you nothing but the best in life even though i know a part of your life will always be incomplete, Annie is gorgeous and I am so glad that you were given this precious little gift. also your letter to Maddie was most beautiful and as i see it though i do not know you, you always will be the best mommy to both of your beautiful girls.


Tuesday, March 30, 2010


Ah its Tuesday and I am all alone in this house and it's so quiet,Okay its not that quiet because i am blasting music more specifically Stupify by Disturbed i enjoy that. Okay I will be moving soon thank goodness but then again it kinda sucks cause i dont enjoy packing and lifting things where are all the hot guys who like to help girls move when they need one? So in a previous post i had talked about Robert Pattinson's new movie called Remember me and the other day i finally got to watch it and i am just going to say i loved it, the ending was like so unexpected for me but i wont say anymore because i dont want to spoil it for those who haven't seen it but plan on it!

I really want to go away somewhere soon but i don't know if i will be able which totally sucks..why cant you ever just get away when you want to? So I got a new dog her name is Annie and I dont know why I chose that name it just seemed to fit, she is a Boston Terrier and soo cute also she likes going around in circles which makes me sick yes i tried it the other day..

Has anyone else ever wanted to just scream in someones face because they were so aggravated with them? I have wanted to do that a lot lately. I just dont understand why certain people just cant like do what they are suppose to do instead of going and doing things that they really shouldnt! Ugh ppl make me sick.

It's no damn wonder i tend to be so mad all the time and hate ppl in general!

Oh well done with this for now..

Sunday, March 21, 2010

No catchy title here folks...

ok today I have decided that any of you lovely six followers of mine, i didn't include the 7th one because its me and well i think maybe that would be a bit much if i did it to, can ask me anything you want to know and i will answer it as best as i can.

Now that, that is over with i began wondering earlier if like rain deters Zombies..because it started raining earlier and i heard those weird noises again outside which is what i imagine zombies would sound like and yes i am still stuck on zombies-dont judge me- you would be too if your house was surrounded by them.i guess your just not cool enough to attract zombies to your house, tho i am thinking about asking for a detailed map to each of your houses so that i can come there and hangout for awhile-just long enough to lure them to your house so they'll eat you and not me--i mean so we can share zombies and all cause I'm nice like that, anyways back to my point i think that they would like the rain because if they can think intelligently which i assume they can then they would realize that dark rainy nights are the best nights to go on the hunt so to speak because no one would be out with oozies and snipers trying to kill them..or whatever it is that people are trying to do when shooting them..which is really kinda stupid because dude they are already dead so how can you kill them again?? i would suggest luring them to an area with some unlucky bastard that you hate and then blow the place up that solves two of your problems zombies are blown to bits and you get rid of that annoying bastard you hate so much, you're welcome btw.

also i think if i were to become a zombie i would be like the damn zombie queen, just saying.

Now onto other thoughts you see earlier Emily and I were looking at strange things online and she found a bathing suit with a vibrator attached to it..its a new take on enjoying swimming. also it reminded me of that movie with Catherine Heigle and Gerrard Butler that i cant remember then name of right now..anyone know what i am talking about? yeah but anyways that was a hilarious movie whatever the hell its called.

Oh and also we were looking at these clothes on this website and i really hope i can find it again so that i can find this picture so that i can put it on here so you can see what i am going to be talking about alright so there was this outfit and it made me rename the sight whores are us, anyways i know that's a strange thing but oh well..

I have a question. what is your favorite scent? Wanna know mine? it's that smell guys have when their cologne mixes with sweat and just plain sexiness..lmao yeah absolutely fave smell ever..especially if the cologne happens to be axe yum yumma yummmm!

btw did u notice that i asked like 3 questions there? you just looked didn't you? HA!

OMG! I just remembered something from when i was a kid that terrified me. There was this barbie doll that was pregnant and the big round belly part opened up and there was a tiny little baby in there..ugh and also that big round belly part came off and there was this little like button thing on her back that you pushed and this piece came down in front so she would have a regular belly again once she had the baby, so i suppose because you took the baby out that was some kind of new c-section technique.. i loved barbies when i was younger but that damn thing terrified me! i wish i could find a picture of one so all of you could see what i was talking about in case you never saw it.

I don't drink anymore because i tend to always get sick but right now i want to drink and just get completely wasted. anyone else feel that way? I think if i did decide to drink someone should record me because i say some of the damnedest that even a word? or did i just make it up? oh well i love it and I am going to use it more often now. maybe they should record me on video because i bet that would be a hilarious sight. and btw no it wouldn't embarrass me i would laugh at myself regardless of whatever i did.

who has used the word yeehaw? ME! yep just did and i use it all the time because i find it funny and i always put on like this thicker country accent even though i already have one cause I'm from the damn south that's why! okay now that was just crazy! i really don't know what's wrong with me..unless its that brain tumor i was talking about the other day pressing against my brain and making me say or well type crazy things...or maybe i am just insane. could be..dunno for sure..maybe i should go see a psychiatrist and see if he would declare me certifiably insane..nahhhhhh then they would put that straight jacket on me again..i mean for the first time ever..and lock me in that padded cell..don't wanna do that again..i mean ever as in never as in first time ever..i swear!

Okay time for a change of subject lets see what can i think of now to talk about that wont make me look completely insane? hmm...DAMMIT! i cant do it no matter what i think about and then think maybe i should write or type this it still makes me look is that a bad sign?

Has anyone ever heard of the potty dance? it's a song on nickelodeon for little kids who are trying to be potty trained..but every time i hear that song i sing along to makes me laugh and it has a catchy beat..STOP IT..I KNOW YOU ARE JUDGING ME! okay maybe it's just the voices in my head that are judging me and I am confused and thinking its actual people...OMG I AM INSANE!! Someone please help me..i think i shouldn't be allowed to be on here and have actual people read what i am thinking..but then again maybe i should..also this may just be my opinion but i think i am going to make an awesome mom one kids wont know what to think of me..but i bet i can always make them laugh..and i will guarantee this there will never be a mother quite like me..i wont be one to hide things from kids like facts of life and shit nope..i am just going to tell them..and i will also tell them secrets lol and it will be like were best friends..well i hope..i know everyone out there is thinking you cant do that because it will cause problems..that's okay really..cause see there is always a solution to a problem even if it is a randomly odd but hilarious conversation or the old technique of doing something fun and ignoring it..Really it works you should try it sometime..

does anyone out there love Dane Cook as much as me? probably not..but he is fantastically hilarious and Hot! yummy..delicious..oh sorry my mind started wandering in a different direction..

Oh my my has anyone ever read growing up Cullen? Ha greatness! yes it does make fun of Edward from Twilight but it's still great and don't criticize me for this because I am Team Edward all the way but still it's great and if you haven't read it then Google it and read it dammit or i may end up taking a temper tantrum! yes i really am 2 and the smartest, bestest two year old you will ever know! so nana nana boo!

Okay this Two year old going on Twenty five is quitting for now because it's wayy past her nap time and i am getting grumpy, so until next time..


Ps: Oh and the name of that movie was called The Ugly Truth, I remembered it! Yay me!!! Oh and btw if you cant find Growing Up Cullen when you search for it but you want to read it just let me know and I will post the whole thing on here... Oh and btw I forgot how to post a picture on here so I cant add the picture which inspired me to rename that site whores are us..and that just makes me sad because now none of you will get to see what i mean... :(

Saturday, March 20, 2010

Dearest Emily..

Dearest Emily,
I think maybe we might have been wrong about this blogging idea, I have like seven followers and I'm not sure how many you have but I do know you are never on here updating..hmm busy much?

Dearest Emily,
Maybe we should have done random video blogs or letters or whatever you would call them maybe some of us screaming at each other..maybe some talking about things no one but us would understand though they would still find them funny..

Dearest Emily,
Like that time we stayed up all night jacked up on sugar and caffeine and threw candy at each other and we were giggling..remember that? you member that!

Dearest Emily,
Or that time we rode that surf board thing down the stairs at your house..and that same night we made the alarm go off and it was so loud..hehe..oh and the time we jumped on the trampoline trying to see over the fence to see the hot firefighters..Oh lol you remember the girl who through the rocks over the fence and almost hit Karley and I went off on her and then she started riding her lawn mower everywhere and we made fun of her..were mean arent we? lmao too bad for those people and anyone else who cause us to make fun of them..

Dearest Emily,
Or maybe the time we were once again jacked up on sugar..well ice cream cake and we stayed up until like six am laughing and we laughed at the same time and then bumped our heads on the wall at the same time..and then slept until like five that evening..

Dearest Emily,
And you member that time we were walking through Norma's old neighborhood and that boy was on his skateboard and you yelled out fall and he did and we couldn't stop laughing..and he totally followed us for like ever..

Dearest Emily,
And then there was that other time we were walking through that same neighborhood and that one girl was yelling something out her window and so we started yelling back at her and she came outside and we screamed and told her to go back inside and take off that Halloween mask but it was really just her face..

Dearest Emily,
How about the time we started dancing together in that thrift store and your mom thought we were nuts and that cashier guy was hot and he was staring at us..

Dearest Emily,
What ever happened to that picture of your homemade applesauce? you member that? when you went and sat out in the driveway while on the phone with me and cut up an apple and started mushing it together to make applesauce and then you took a picture of it and put it on myspace for me?

Dearest Emily,
You remember when we went bowling that time? and I sucked at bowling so i made up the la la loser song? we could do that on video and just start naming off our ex's and ppl we hate that the song could be for..

Dearest Emily,
I think maybe I need sleep..or maybe there is just something wrong with me..

Dearest Emily,
I wonder if you will ever read this? probably after I send you a message telling you to get on here and read it..

Dearest Emily,
OH! OH! I just thought about that time we went through wal-mart doing stupid stuff and taking holding that gigantic sausage up to our lady parts..and you put on that one jacket..then posed with a spider man pinata and then i put on those glasses..oh and we put on those purple high heels and we took pictures of our feet..

Dearest Emily,
I don't like talking about this but it's funny too cause I got drunk and sick all because that fairy guy friend of your mom's breathed in my direction and his breath smelled like taco's and it made me sick..then i was hugging the toilet and your mom recorded me..we deleted that right?

Dearest Emily,
Member the clown guy in the cage thing at raytown days making fun of Justin? haha

Dearest Emily,
Oh and there's always the time we made Terry cry on the phone and we were laughing so hard he thought we were crying and we had to put the phone in the closet so he wouldn't know we were laughing..

Dearest Emily,
I wonder why I am doing you have any ideas?

Dearest Emily,
And I couldn't leave out the whole conversation/argument over which mythological creature sex would be better..Werewolves or Vampires, I still think Vampires would be better but then again now I really am interested in that whole experiment thing..
I really wish there was a way to know..hmm dammit..and I do totally see your point about the werewolves,tan,yummy,warm, but then there is that whole pale,sparkly, rich, loves to bite, immortal thing..that i find appealing..and of course with me being the whole freaky lil daredevil i wonder which one could keep up with me better? wow am I really this insane? Nah I just think I think outside the box..

Dearest Emily,
Do you think an advice column would have worked better? member when you said i should have done that.

Dearest Emily,
What do you think of this? laying in the hot sun, not a worry in the world, a long way from Ms/Mo, someone pouring us a drink, roll a big fat one, and just dance around with hot island guys? LMFAO that sounds great to me.

Dearest Emily,
I think we could scare many people around here if they saw us together what do you think?

Dearest Emily,
What if we did go where we want to this summer and found some hot guys right? could we take them with us when we left? keep them in a cage? j/k lol not really..
but do you think they would be opposed to leashes? hmm..

Dearest Emily,
Our family really could make a great sitcom.

Dearest Emily,
Should I really tell people that our family was nicknamed the redneck mafia?

Dearest Emily,
Why aren't we famous? we totally should be! What a cruel injustice this world has made! If you were famous who would be the first guy you would go after? Taylor Lautner right? Hmm I wonder who I would go after? Benji Madden? or maybe Kellan Lutz, or what about the guy who plays Paul..Yummy Yummy RAWRRRR!! lmao

Dearest Emily,
I started to scare myself because I have a headache and i was secretly wondering if maybe i had some kind of brain tumor that was pressing against my brain and trying to push it out through my eye socket and if that happened would the tumor remain attached to my brain or would it somehow like fall off and then down onto my spine when my brain fell out of my eye socket? And also I'm terrified of Zombies attacking now because there was this noise outside my window and it totally sounded like what i imagine a zombie who was looking for brains to eat would sound like..and now that made me wonder is that all zombies eat are brains? or do they just try to bite/eat you because they want to turn you into a zombie as well so they wont be so alone? which is kind of nice i mean if you think about it they just want someone else like them who can roam around the world eating brains and other body parts with them! Also if i do have that brain tumor i don't think they would try to eat me because i would be diseased like that and i think they would know and that would be totally unfair and just plain rude! but then they would bite/eat my cat and he would be a zombie cat and i wonder if he would try to eat me? OMFG he is a zombie cat already! Now I'm freaking out! he already tries to attack me and bite me...oh lord..okay well now I am going to go hide from the zombies and my maybe zombie cat...i think...

Dearest Emily,
I have to go now because I am worried that if I continue somehow they are going to have me committed..Okay so this is the last Dearest Emily..

Love Always,
Your maybe kinda insane Aunt Missy..

PS: Dearest Emily,
Dammit i did it again but there is this song on right now and some of the words go " go on and pick your kitten purr baby purr" and that totally made me think bad thoughts about that guy who plays Paul and I need serious help..where are you?? Ahhh..okay I quit..for now...I think..byess

Tuesday, March 16, 2010


Well lets see I haven't really been posting anything because well honestly I have been in a funk and when i say funk i don't mean one of those things where I am having a bad day or a bad week and it will I have been down right depressed and I don't know what to do to get over it, there has been a lot of things to cause me to be sad but not like this..and honestly I am not really sure what is causing it or if its just an accumulation of all the things that have been happening but I mean I recognize that it is a problem and I have tried to make an effort to be happier or bring myself out of the depression and it's just not working, so I guess I am wondering if anyone who happens to read my blog has any advice? I am not really wanting to go to the doctor who will more than likely prescribe me some kind of pills and I don't want those..I just want some kind of way to try to lift my mood and see if I cant bring myself out of this.

Other than that I have been reading a lot and one of the things i read was about Robert Pattinson whom you all know as Edward from Twilight and New Moon but he recently had a new movie out entitled Remember Me and though I have not yet seen this movie I think I will be seeing it soon, the previews looked really good but anyways it didn't bring in as much money as they thought it would on opening night and I think this is because everyone became a fan of his because he played Edward the vampire and he is with Bella and they do not want to see him with any other girl, but this is the thing i really think that if you like someone as an actor you would support their movies and try to make each one a hit so don't just be all judgey because she's not Bella and you don't want to see him with someone else if you are a real fan of his then be a real fan. Same thing with the upcoming movie The Runaways that stars Kristen Stewart and Dakota Fanning if you are a real fan of them then support them all the way and try to make all their movies as much of a hit as the Twilight Sagas have been.

Also I celebrated my nephews 7th birthday with my family which was fun, I know that's not exciting news for you to read but w/e and also I want to put it in here incase you don't already read them but you should really read and wow that really is long lol they are awesome women, Heather from the second url has been through so much and has somehow endured it shares her stories and her strength shines through she is an unbelievably amazing woman and I for one am truly inspired by her. Jenny, from is so funny but she can also have a serious side she has her issues and she shows us that it is okay to be different and that we are all beautiful in our own ways even if it is in a strange hilarious way, if you don't already read their blogs you definitely should.

well that's about all and please feel free to leave me comments.


Friday, March 5, 2010

Dearest Whomever,

Dearest Kate Gosselin,
Please stop! I know you have been through a lot but seriously you are not twenty anymore and you have eight kids! really dancing with the stars? oh come on what wont you do to get attention? and the new hair is just not working. Go home and be with your kids!
Sincerely, Missy

Dearest Paparazzi,
Do us all a favor and leave Britney Spears alone! Don't give us close up pictures of her stretch marks no one wants to see that and not even just that but how low can you stoop? she had kids ninety nine percent of women who have kids have these battle wounds in fact most people have stretch marks though you may not be able to see them! And the most horrible thing is that you continue even though her precious little boys asked you to stop with the pictures.Learn when to back off.
Sincerely, Missy

Dearest Lindsey Lohan,
Just stop!
Sincerely, Missy

Dearest Nicole Richie,
You have grown up so much and I just have to say that I for one am proud of you, Congrats on getting engaged! and you have beautiful kids.
Sincerely, Missy

Dearest Kristen Stewart,
I love you! and not just because you were an awesome character in all these Twilight movies but because you are an AWESOME person all around i mean you don't care what other people think about you and you are always in the spotlight i mean you wore a skirt made out of bullets..doesn't get much more awesome than that and the fact that you cuss all the it.
Keep up with the good work.
Love always, Missy

Dearest whomever else,
I know that you may think this was a senseless post and maybe that its stupid but i don't care and i felt like posting it, that's why this is my blog not yours! so whatever i know those people i mentioned will more than likely never see this no matter how many times its on the google search engines..and i know most people dont care but screw it i felt like it.

Yours Truly, Missy.

Sunday, February 28, 2010

it's time to talk about ex's

Yeah i know none of us really want to talk about our ex's but i think maybe we should change that cause sometimes if you think about it, you will i am right now.
See the thing that is making me laugh is the fact that we spent so many days and nights wasted bawling our eyes out wanting to be back with that person or maybe like in my situation wondering if i was doing the right thing breaking up with him and worrying about hurting him, but now its like why? and i don't i am laughing at my ex with his new wife..well if that's what you can call her..i mean first off she looks like a guy, i really want to ask him or her if she really is..would make sense i mean he was always kinda funny now that i think about it..and he did do time in jail and he wasn't the type to stand up for himself..his mother usually did that lol so yeah makes sense that he would be gay..but i cant understand why she would pretend to be a girl..dammit i am going to have to ask them somehow.

Now onto my ex before see i honestly thought i was going to marry him and everything but he was always so indecisive..i guess u could call it and also he just couldnt keep his male organ out of other females organs lol so it ended and yes i was devastated then he started dating this girl i called a horse because she looks like one..again not my fault for being so judge mental of my ex's girlfriends but they did make it impossible not to be..but anyways apparently even tho he loved her he had the same problem with her that he had with me..well see by accident and causing me to feel sorry for her i kinda helped in splitting those two up..oops lol.

And this post would not be complete if i didnt mention my beautiful niece's stupid ex. why? well because she is an absolute winner all around and the boy was stupid enough to let her go. this boy i cant call him a man..theres just no way..he cheated on her after he told her he was going to move to where she was and be with her and he wanted to marry her and all this stuff..then after they broke up he ends up with this thing..who is like 34 i think and he is 18 she has two kids who are probably closer in age to him and then what happened he married her..yes yes he did and lol i must mention the fact that he is just a plain fucking moron..wanna hear some stupidity at its finest? actual quote from his myspace status:"i love my wife and ur kids.." yeah..oh and some of the best stuff ever was when he of all people called my niece white trash i believe..and yet..he is like the fucking king of white trash..and his wife would be the queen..

So anyways my point is girls i know that maybe he was the someone special you always dreamed about and your heart is breaking with every second because he doesnt want you anymore but look at it this way Karma is going to screw him royally and your going to have the last laugh plus if he was stupid enough to walk away from you then be smart enough to let him go and DONT TAKE HIM BACK NO MATTER WHAT! also you will eventually meet the one who you are meant to be with and then you will see why it never worked out with anyone else.

Also this goes for guys too, i know there are plenty of good guys out there and there are plenty of moronic girls but just take this and apply it to your situation.


Tuesday, February 23, 2010

near and dear to my heart

Okay so today i saw that Johnny Depp is speaking out for The West Memphis Three which i am totally stoked about! Now this i am going to ask you before hand if you read this i know that you may have heard things about them and the case and what they were convicted for but unless you have seen everything like documentaries and all on them and read everything in the files which you can if you just look it up do not judge them or me. I support them one hundred percent because i have seen it all and i have read it all and there is absolutely no way they did this and i know that in my heart i have been following this story since i was probably ten it happened when i was seven but when i was ten and my sister was 12 she heard about it and we watched everything on it through the years they have gained a lot of supporters including several celebrities trying to free them.

Having an A-list celebrity like Johnny Depp is fantastic because of the obvious attention he can generate from this i am hoping beyond hope that they get a fair trial and are freed!

Shortly after three eight-year-old boys were found mutilated and murdered in West Memphis, Arkansas, local newspapers stated the killers had been caught. The police assured the public that the three teenagers in custody were definitely responsible for these horrible crimes. Evidence?

The same police officers coerced an error-filled "confession" from Jessie Misskelley Jr., who is mentally handicapped. They subjected him to hours of questioning without counsel or parental consent, audio-taping only two fragments totaling 46 minutes. Jessie recanted it that evening, but it was too late— Misskelley, Jason Baldwin and Damien Echols were all arrested on June 3, 1993, and convicted of murder in early 1994.

Although there was no physical evidence, murder weapon, motive, or connection to the victims, the prosecution pathetically resorted to presenting black hair and clothing, heavy metal t-shirts, and Stephen King novels as proof that the boys were sacrificed in a satanic cult ritual. Unfathomably, Echols was sentenced to death, Baldwin received life without parole, and Misskelley got life plus 40.

In the years since the convictions of Damien Echols, Jason Baldwin and Jessie Misskelley for a crime they did not commit, their cause has gained support from all over the world, and these men have become known as the West Memphis Three. The story of the injustice they have endured at the hands of the state of Arkansas has never lost momentum, and in recent months, the evidence in their favor has grown to the point where it's nearly impossible to view this case as anything other than a miscarriage of justice.

Teenagers at the time of their arrest in 1993, these young men were considered suspects in the gruesome triple child homicide and arrested without any evidence tying them to the crime. The police and the state managed to convince the media and the juries that "devil worshippers" were responsible, and that Damien, Jason and Jessie somehow fit that description. It was publicly stated by law enforcement officials and the media that the murders had been a part of a satanic ritual; a human sacrifice in the wooded areas of West Memphis, Arkansas. It seems unlikely that this would be accepted as motive by a contemporary jury, but once the police had a young, mentally challenged boy in their custody, they managed to coerce him into providing what was seen as a "confession" despite huge logic holes, discrepancies and the fact that he later recanted and refused to testify against the other two men.

Now, 15 years later, these men are still fighting for their freedom, but there are a few major differences now. The "satanic cult sacrifice" motive is now seen as an embarrassment that the police and prosecution no longer embrace, and much more importantly, DNA and other forensic technologies have progressed to the point where items that were previously inadequate for testing are now providing the positive proof that Damien, Jason and Jessie have been waiting over a decade for.

The results of recent DNA testing have revealed that these three men couldn't have been involved in the murders because not one cell of genetic material has been identified that matches them. The nature of this crime as put forth by the State of Arkansas makes it very unlikely that the perpetrator could have committed it without leaving even the smallest trace behind. DNA evidence was, however found that matches a pair of individuals who had been together on the day the children disappeared. One of these individuals is the stepfather of one of the victims.

In Fall of 2008, hearings took place in Jonesboro, Arkansas to show that Jason Baldwin and Jessie Misskelley did not receive adequate legal counsel during their trials. After several years of similar proceedings, Damien Echols finally completed his ineffective counsel hearings in 2000. These hearings revealed new information not known at the time of the original trials, as well as information that was not known to their trial attorneys. At these 2008 hearings, specifics of the original homicide investigation were examined in detail, providing further proof of the multitude of failures and errors made by West Memphis Police and other investigators at the time. It has also been shown that Damien, Jason and Jessie did not receive adequate counsel due to jury tainting, inexperienced public defenders, serious under funding, lack of access to state crime labs and resources among many other things.

Forensic psychologist Dr. Timothy Derning testified at this hearing that Jessie Misskelley was not competent to stand trial, and that he wasn't questioned properly or legally by the police. His so-called confession contains many lapses in logic, discrepancies and outright fabrication, and yet it was used in truncated form as evidence, and resulted in the imprisonment of this man who should never have been questioned without a lawyer or parent present. In light of Dr. Dernings's testimony it's very clear that Jessie Misskelley was coerced into making his statements, and that the content of those statements is so disjointed and irrational, it should never have been considered valid.

Daniel Stidham, Jessie's trial attorney, also testified at these hearings. Stidham stated that he had been grossly under funded and unprepared to defend his client. He admitted that for much of the time he spend as Jessie's defense attorney he actually believed his client to be guilty due to the rumors and innuendo that was circulating at the time in conjunction with exaggerations and false information that had been released to the media. It wasn't until Stidham was able to examine the case more closely that he came to realize that his client was not only mentally handicapped, but that he had been subjected to an irresponsible and unconscionable interrogation process at the hands of the West Memphis Police Department. Stidham's budget was so prohibitively restricted that he was forced to use money from his own pocket to obtain expert witnesses, and his access to the state crime lab was almost non-existent.

Dr. Werner Spitz, perhaps the most well-known forensic pathologist and forensic scientist in the world, also provided illuminating testimony at this hearing. The pathologist who examined the victim's bodies back in 1993 was not Board Certified, and according to Dr. Spitz was incapable of seeing evidence that would have been instantly obvious to a more experienced medical examiner. Spitz noted injuries on the bodies that could only have been caused by animal predation. These wounds had been previously attributed to a stabbing weapon.

As each new fact emerges, we see more and more proof that Jessie's "confession" is nothing more than a case study in coercion and false confession. Experts on coercion and police procedure all agree that it simply isn't worth anything as evidence.

As evidence of the innocence of Damien, Jason and Jessie increases, the hearsay and speculation against them continue to dwindle to nothing. Support for these three men continues to grow as more and more people are made aware of their situation. As they exhaust their state appeals, all three of these men are optimistic and encouraged by the advances in their case. They await the federal circuit courts and the chance to finally have an unbiased light shining on the facts. Damien, Jason and Jessie and their many supporters know that they will soon be free men, but they all want to make sure that the world doesn't close its eyes and ears to this tragedy.

The current state of DNA technology in 2008 has improved greatly since the original investigations in 1993. Items that were previously considered untestable and insignificant at the time of their trials are now providing positive genetic matches.

• Recent DNA tests involving dozens of items related to the crime have failed to link any of the three defendants to the crime scene.

• A hair found at the site where the bodies were recovered has been shown to be a positive DNA match to another individual. The matching hair was found on a ligature used to bind one of the victims. This individual is the stepfather of one of the other victims.

• Another hair found at the site has been shown to be a positive DNA to a man who was with the stepfather on the day of the crimes.

• DNA recovered from the penis of one of the victims has been shown to NOT match Jessie Misskelley, Jason Baldwin or Damien Echols.

• Scientific analysis by some of nation’s leading forensics experts have shown that the original investigation was not conducted properly.

• Recent examinations have shown that wounds on the victims’ bodies were caused by animals at the crime scene after the victims were dead.

• These wounds were not caused by knives, as claimed by the prosecution, a claim that was a substantial factor in their case.

• In 1993, unqualified, untrained examiners that were not Board Certified reached erroneous conclusions based on misinformation.

• Witness testimony pertaining to knives and stabbing have been shown to be false.

• These new forensic findings undermine testimony by questionable "cult expert" Dale Griffis, who contended the murders had been a part of a satanic cult ritual human sacrifice. This absurd claim has again been proven false.

• The scientific evidence provided by qualified forensic experts has refuted everything used in court to convict these three innocent men.

For over 15 years, The West Memphis Three have been imprisoned for crimes they didn’t commit. Echols waits in solitary confinement at a Supermax facility for the lethal injection our tax dollars will pay for. But all three were condemned by their poverty, incompetent defense, Satanic panic and a rush to judgment by the media.

But there’s still hope for them, and you can help.

you can find out more at

please do not post rude comments about this because i will not tolerate it!


p.s.: btw yes i know this states things about DNA in 2008 and that is because this information for you all to view came from the website and i suppose that is when it was written. it has now been 17 years for these three and i am praying that they are freed and i hope that you will keep an open mind about this and also pray as well.

Free The West Memphis Three

Sunday, February 21, 2010


I am sick so there for i am moody, and when i say moody i don't mean like it switches from being happy to mad or anything no i am just in a bad mood and i think that i am entitled to be in this mood if i want. i have heard from several people today that just because i don't feel good doesn't mean i should be mean well dumb fuck you know i do not feel good and you also know that i am in a bad mood but yet you just decide to annoy the hell out of me with your idiocy anyway so you get what you get from me be that bitchiness or not and if you don't like it leave me alone until i am feeling better and just to clarify i am not always mean when i am sick its just certain people decide that its okay to annoy me even though they have been warned, in fact i believe that i am pretty much a nice person i just have a tendency to get a little bitchy especially considering since i am sick i want to sit in my bed and watch something on t.v. but can i? no! wanna know why because all i fucking hear about or see anymore is the damn Olympics and its not that i am against the Olympics or anything its just i am not that interested in it, i could care less really and yet i am bombarded by it not only on t.v. but online as well.
this is it for now because i have a headache and i cant i feel like screaming profanities over everything right now!


Friday, February 19, 2010

grab my button.



Wednesday, February 17, 2010

Here goes nothing.

I have heard recently that I should open myself up more on here..hmm what an interesting thought, I mean I only have like what 4 followers one of which is myself..that happened on accident but i decided to keep it because I thought I bet no one else is as weird as me and will follow themselves, so you see that makes me special and in all actuality i have no clue how to undo it not that i would anyways, but also this makes the other 3 that much more special because hey at least i know i have some ppl out there who are somewhat interested in what i have to say.
personally i don't usually like to open up my personal life so that others can read about it or whatever i am a person who keeps to themselves or only opens up to those that I know I can trust, its not like by posting more on myself that i will magically get more readers..well anyways like my title here goes i have said before my family is unique i seriously doubt there is another family out there quite like ours, half the time i don't understand us lol so i seriously doubt you might..I never really knew my dad's parents well my momaw died before i was born and my popaw died when i was like maybe a couple weeks old so i didn't have the chance to know them, i have only known my mother's parents whom i call nanny and grandpa i am very close to them, well more so my grandpa was a hard man to get to know and understand and i think fault lies on both of our parts that we never were really that close,when i was growing up and would go spend the summer there at their house grandpa had his own things to tend to and he was strict but it wasn't overly i knew he loved me but i also knew that it just wasn't something that was said, that's just the sad dose of truth, but also after a falling out of sorts one summer my mom wouldn't let us go back up there so after that we didn't get to see them again for awhile in fact i believe the next time was was after Hurricane Katrina when we were living in Missouri and we went for a visit I was 19 or 20 at the time and i hadn't seen them since i was 11 i think so it was a pretty long time i ended up staying there with them later on that year after my parents went back home so i think on some level i became closer to my grandpa not as close as i would have liked but i still felt like that child who was intimidated by him even though i knew more than likely only good would have come out of me trying more..i still wrote him a note before i left and told him how much i appreciated him and that i loved him i know he was happy about getting it and he told my mother to tell me thank you and that he loved me as well..he kept it hanging over this heart shaped decoration that hung on the wall next to his chair, this is not a happy ending blog..last year in i believe October he was diagnosed with lung cancer and it got worse faster than anyone thought it would in fact it spread to his liver and there was nothing the doctors could do for that, My mother and I went to visit in December since he was in failing health it was difficult to see him like that he was frail and slept all the time which is normal for cancer patients but it shocked me to see a man who i always viewed as so healthy and strong in this condition.( in fact all the people who found out about it later on said he was always the picture of health, you never would have thought it.) we had only been there a few days when he passed away on December the Eighth 2009 that was probably one of the hardest things to accept that he was gone because i had never imagined that i would see that know what it was like to walk through this house that held so many memories of him and he not be there it was eerie and very odd..over the next couple of days we planned the wake and funeral which btw i don't know how i got through going to the funeral home and walking down to the basement to look at caskets so his children and wife could pick out one..nothing has ever given me the heebie jeebies as bad as that, the night of the wake was something that i will never forget to see him lying in the casket up there was unbelievable it took me forever and the support of my younger cousins to walk up to the casket and view him closer..he looked peaceful. There were so many people that showed up, my grandpa had made an impact on several peoples lives, one of the weirdest and most unbelievable things that happened there was when a cousin ( i believe that's what she is to me) leaned against his casket and it wobbled all i can say is omg i almost passed out all i could see was it falling thank goodness it didn't but then after that she actually lifted the little curtain in the casket to see what kind of pants he was wearing..yeah..weirdness..the funeral went well it was sad and the tears finally began falling after this poem the minister read..i had cried before and was trying my best to stay strong for my cousins but after that i just couldn't help it, the burial was beautiful and peaceful it was literally on top of a mountain and they did a military funeral where they played what is called taps and that music played on top of a lonely mountainside cemetery was unlike anything else there is no words to describe the feeling, also one of the oddest things that happened after he died was i got this song stuck in my head called go high on that mountain by Vince Gill and this was before i knew where the cemetery was see i had never been up there before or even heard of where it was, my uncle Wayne is buried up there but unless by my mom and maybe my uncle Rodney he was hardly ever talked about, anyways i also had a dream about my grandpa the night after he passed away and it was like i was looking at him through a window and he looked exactly as i had always known him to look and he had this huge smile on his face he was also wearing this red and black flanneled jacket which he didn't own one apparently BUT the weird thing was one night before he passed away he asked someone for that jacket..spooky, but i remember waking up kinda freaked out after that dream and i told my mom about it and she said more than likely it was his way of saying goodbye and letting me know he was okay.
Death is one of the hardest things that you will ever have to go through and though i had been through it before it wasn't as hard as that and i believe that is because he was my grandpa and i had some regret of not getting to know him as well as i should have, i think that everyone out there should definitely tell the people that are in your lives how much you love them and try your hardest even if you feel like its impossible to get to know them better, don't live with regret. Be thankful that you had the time that you did with them and don't let the anger that you will feel after they have died eat at you they wouldn't want you to feel this way.

Don't take life for granted because one minute that person is here and the next they are gone, even you and as grim as that thought is its true, even if you don't always get along with certain family members make sure they know that you love wont always have the chance to tell them.

what a depressing post right..well i hope that anyone who reads this will take something from it, i know that through this unfortunate lesson i have learned a lot of things and i am thankful for all of the people i have in my life and i love every single one of them even if i don't always say it i hope they know it's true and i have also tried more to say it.


Sunday, February 14, 2010

Valentine's Day!

I think this holiday is ridiculous and I cant stand the mushiness of it all..people parading around with their significant other with balloons and stupid roses acting like oh I have the love of my life nothing could ever go wrong look how special i am to him..yeah you are special but you shouldn't have to wait until one day in the year for him to make it known he should make it known all the time and not only that but typically guys only get girls these things because they are hoping to get lucky. seriously i don't mean to rain on your parade but its the truth cant handle it oh well..I don't feel this way because i am single and just felt like being mean no I would still feel this way even if i had someone because Valentine's day is just an overrated holiday, I think its moronic to believe in something like this because apparently some 5000 yr old fat baby shot you with an arrow..umm yeah ..oh btw thanks Emmie for the whole 5000 yr old fat baby but anyways love typically happens because two people have the same values, like the same things..etc etc and over time they fall in love, yes i do believe that there are times when you can just instantly fall in love with someone but i dont believe that to be true for everyone and typically it all ends because he cheated on you or you found someone else..i think its all really stupid.

I read your last post but it wouldnt let me comment on it, so i will just add this in as a comment for your last post, sounds like you had a blast tho it also sounds like you were completely jacked up on caffeine and i know what you are like when this happens so yeah i kinda feel sorry for those that were around you...okay not really lol its greatness when you are like that.

Thursday, February 11, 2010

awesomeness lol

a little off..

yeah so i got a little off point with this whole blog thing see i was suppose to be telling you about my never boring life as i call it and honestly my life rarely is ever boring and not because i have so much fun stuff going on that i just cant stop having fun no..its more because of my family and this little place i live in that i will call Drama-town seriously..the people here are really nice people but if they decide to turn on you, you have instantly become the p.o.i or person of interest, these people talk about you like they have known you their whole lives and like they secretly record your every movement..for instance i broke up with my fiancee a few months back and there are still rumors going around about why i did, no one knows the real reason except for me and a few of my closest peeps, recently i heard it was because i was " a whore who liked to break hearts." btw i found it really funny because the person who started this is in fact a whore like i have known several people this person has screwed now whether or not this person breaks hearts or not is up for debate, i don't honestly think its possible but i could be wrong..wait WHAT??? i am never wrong..sorry i don't know what came over me there, but anyways i am now moving on to some different topics like my family for instance see i know that there are a lot of you out there that claim i have the craziest/weirdest family of all but YOU DON'T KNOW MINE..has your family ever been nicknamed The Redneck Mafia? i doubt it, that nickname was given by my sister's ex boyfriend and more or less probably because of my dad, whom i love very much but don't quite understand half the time, he has made guys get down on their knees and sing to my sister and myself which when it happened to my sister i found it hilarious but when it was me..i wasn't amused. When my family gets together it becomes an interesting sight..people drink and get loud and sometimes we have to make beer runs to wal-mart @ 3 am in our pajamas.
My niece Emily and I are so much alike its scary and when were together we often look at each other and just laugh everyone else around thinks were high, we are very opinionated and we honestly don't give a damn what we say or if we hurt your feelings especially if you are a guy..we love to pick on guys. That is why we both decided to start a blog so we could share with the world what we think.
Oh here is a bit of randomness for you about a place i like to go to occasionally here in Drama-town, this place is a restaurant/bar and sometimes really strange things happen there like for instance once there was this guy who came in with his date one night and they sat at the bar she apparently had a prosthetic leg and he didn't know this until it fell off..AND SHE PUT IT ON THE BAR! yes she did and one of the bartenders got so tickled she didn't know what to do so in a fit of giggles she asked my mother ( yeah i go to the bar with my mom-don't judge its greatness) "how do you tell someone they need to remove their leg from the bar?" well that started a chain reaction of giggles which led to the joke of "and all the kings men and all the kings horses couldn't put humpty dumpty together again." yeah were horrible huh? nah it was greatness too bad you couldn't be there.

Oh and my question to anyone out there reading this even if you don't follow me and you should, have you ever read growing up Cullen? even if you hate twilight (which i don't see how you could.) you should still read this, it is one of the funniest things ever, its just too bad they didn't continue on with it.

Okay well that's enough of my ramblings.
p.p.s: yeah i know you will notice it soon enough but i wanted to point out the obvious yes i follow myself, why? because I'm awesome and i love me! you should take my advice and follow me too. :D
Byes- Missy

Wednesday, February 10, 2010


yeah so okay lets see where i want to life is filled with this mixture of messes i call it insanity at its finest but alas thats not where i was going with this, my thoughts today are on Megan Fox and her toe thumb, yeah have you seen it? Yuck! lol she may be really pretty but once you see the thumb its kinda like ewe never mind and i personally think that with all her money she would be seeing if there was a doctor somewhere that could fix this imperfection as people like to call it.I added this pic so you could see her posing and showing off her toe thumb..disturbing.


Dear Emily,

Welcome to my page! I cant wait to get this started because we are going to have a great time with our blogs, I plan on going kinda crazy with mine and of course you know me to always speak my mind about everything including things that others would be mad at me for but i dont care.
Also eventually i will be posting a video on here occasionally as part of a blog..but w.e. i will worry about that when it comes.

love ya, Missy